I may or may not have had 4 Oreo cookies today. They may or may not have been double stuffed!! Yes I did.
And, I may or may not have eaten them out of stress today. Fully knowing what I was doing and fully aware that I was NOT hungry. Yes I did.
It’s not the number four, but it’s what was behind it!
Shocked? Surprised? Can you relate?
But tonight as I look back on my day, I can say these words with confidence: “I will hold myself to a standard of grace and not perfection.”
Some days just are tough. Some days don’t go as you expect. Some days you find yourself not acting and doing the things you would like to do. Some days you eat the cookies. And you know what? It is OKAY!!! It is!!
For years, I would hide what I was eating, binge, hide, diet, beat myself up, binge some more, and promise to NEVER eat “X” again. That was until the next time I felt stressed, bored, lonely, you name it. It never worked. It was a vicious cycle. A cycle that I hated to be in, and that I hate to see others in as well. It is hard. When I finally realized it wasn’t about the food – but it was about an emotional/mental issue for me, things started to improve.
So, if you can relate to what I am saying, please know that I have been there. Stop making it about the food. Stop coming up with new “food rules.” Instead, I beg for you to find out what it is that is “eating” you….deep in your soul. That is the only true way to find the freedom that we all can have in this area of food. You notice, I said, “freedom” and I didn’t say “perfection”. That is a big distinction.
I have found when it comes to food, that until we live out GRACE on ourselves, we will never truly be FREE. I developed our “Listen and Lose” program in P31 Fitness precisely for this reason. Stop with the impossible rules. Stop with the beating yourself up mentality. Stop with the perfectionistic diets. STOP. Breathe. Listen. Relax.
Yes, those Oreos today were good. Could I/should I have had just 1 – well, probably…but I didn’t. Should I have checked my emotions a bit more today before eating – well, probably…but I didn’t. And you know what? It’s OKAY! It’s OKAY! Because I didn’t allow this one event to snowball into an all day binge. I moved on, started over, and accepted the grace that allows me to be human, and not to be perfect. I hope you will as well!